DRAG ME TO THE BOTTOM
вторник, 18 ноября 2014
I press trigger
LET THE NEW PART BEGINS/
понедельник, 06 октября 2014
I press trigger
I'm looking in the eyes of stars,
and
see nothing
I'm steadily goin' mad
mad mad m a d
so crazy, so helpless, bound over the deep
I wish I could fall asleep and wake up next year
I wish I could draw my last breath. I wish I knew
how to behave like a human
stay away, don't touch me. no please, come here
we just cant cath up each other
why can't you let me go without being sad so I could ruin my life in pointless and rude relationships with a psycho man
we both deserve being destroyed. I didn't deserve You.
I'm already all worn out
can't find a word
I'm stuck with my feelings
so I can't even finish this letter. let it be as it is
///
and
see nothing
I'm steadily goin' mad
mad mad m a d
so crazy, so helpless, bound over the deep
I wish I could fall asleep and wake up next year
I wish I could draw my last breath. I wish I knew
how to behave like a human
stay away, don't touch me. no please, come here
we just cant cath up each other
why can't you let me go without being sad so I could ruin my life in pointless and rude relationships with a psycho man
we both deserve being destroyed. I didn't deserve You.
I'm already all worn out
can't find a word
I'm stuck with my feelings
so I can't even finish this letter. let it be as it is
///
четверг, 04 сентября 2014
I press trigger
swallow a pill
fall on a pillow
and let it swallow you, you, little lonely moonstar girl
awake in the night, asleep during all your life
you're slippin' below the waterline
the one who has come and has woken me up, now he's slippin' away to the jungle
the one who has poisoned me, now he holds my hand and wash my feet with his salty tears
what should I do?
big sun coming strong through the motel blinds
wake up to your girl for now, let's call her Cleopatra
I watch you fix your hair
then put your panties on in the mirror, Cleopatra
then your lipstick, Cleopatra
then your six-inch heels
catch her
'dem boys tryna catch me
fall on a pillow
and let it swallow you, you, little lonely moonstar girl
awake in the night, asleep during all your life
you're slippin' below the waterline
the one who has come and has woken me up, now he's slippin' away to the jungle
the one who has poisoned me, now he holds my hand and wash my feet with his salty tears
what should I do?
big sun coming strong through the motel blinds
wake up to your girl for now, let's call her Cleopatra
I watch you fix your hair
then put your panties on in the mirror, Cleopatra
then your lipstick, Cleopatra
then your six-inch heels
catch her
'dem boys tryna catch me
четверг, 26 июня 2014
I press trigger
completely lost
completely destroyed
a man always makes me weak. I've made myself, I've taught myself to get along only by myself, alone and always. but when a man comes and breaks a Fortress Of My Own down, all I can do is lie on the floor aching and suffering
it's all my fault, nobody can drag me out of this dark waters
I don't want to ask anyone for help or share my dirt with anyone else
this is just me
and I'm lost and scared
I'm tired of screams inside my head
tired of the fear
this is all my fault, but I'm not blaming myself
we're not playing. everything is much easier. but this is me who is too complicated
completely destroyed
a man always makes me weak. I've made myself, I've taught myself to get along only by myself, alone and always. but when a man comes and breaks a Fortress Of My Own down, all I can do is lie on the floor aching and suffering
it's all my fault, nobody can drag me out of this dark waters
I don't want to ask anyone for help or share my dirt with anyone else
this is just me
and I'm lost and scared
I'm tired of screams inside my head
tired of the fear
this is all my fault, but I'm not blaming myself
we're not playing. everything is much easier. but this is me who is too complicated
среда, 25 июня 2014
I press trigger
kinda tired of all this shit
kinda want to go away
kinda need someone who need me
kinda being a little girl
kinda lost
kinda dead
kinda want to go away
kinda need someone who need me
kinda being a little girl
kinda lost
kinda dead
вторник, 24 июня 2014
I press trigger
I don't feel much like lovin'
cuz it's a lie
kiss with open eyes
I'm not breathing back
cuz it's a lie
kiss with open eyes
I'm not breathing back
воскресенье, 22 июня 2014
I press trigger
Same faces, all smiles blurred and glued in one
Everything is so bright and colorful,
heaven is bleeding with happiness
a murder always comes back until he's caught; a whore always kisses two different boys in one house
I look around and the whole world is moving and dancing, but when I set my eyes on a thing - I realize that nothing's as it seems
I'm not lookin' for anything, you are too complicated, this shit just screws me
and if I kiss you, it's not for love, it's for charity
I won't tell you that I don't care. If you're lookin' for an animal - come open my cage
Everything is so bright and colorful,
heaven is bleeding with happiness
a murder always comes back until he's caught; a whore always kisses two different boys in one house
I look around and the whole world is moving and dancing, but when I set my eyes on a thing - I realize that nothing's as it seems
I'm not lookin' for anything, you are too complicated, this shit just screws me
and if I kiss you, it's not for love, it's for charity
I won't tell you that I don't care. If you're lookin' for an animal - come open my cage
понедельник, 09 июня 2014
I press trigger
I need a coffee
and a cigarette
I need a pointless walk, just u and me walking together in silence
when you don't think of me and my kisses, and I don't think of you and myself in your arms
like it was a few months ago, when you walked forward while I were walking towards you and listening Biffy Clyro - Opposite
and we didn't think about each other
we were in two different worlds, and being separated from each other was the best thing I've ever felt
and a cigarette
I need a pointless walk, just u and me walking together in silence
when you don't think of me and my kisses, and I don't think of you and myself in your arms
like it was a few months ago, when you walked forward while I were walking towards you and listening Biffy Clyro - Opposite
and we didn't think about each other
we were in two different worlds, and being separated from each other was the best thing I've ever felt
суббота, 07 июня 2014
I press trigger
Do I miss your kisses?
I'm no longer goin' mad.
I'm no longer goin' mad.
Just imagine, what if the storm ends
пятница, 06 июня 2014
I press trigger
I guess it' a quite strange - writing letters every night
just 'cause you can't say it out loud. Does no one ask or is there something that can't be shown?
Trees will speak
before you listen. Oh my God
No one knows that
we can barely stand each other
it's not fair.
No, it's not fair
Where is the Justice and Independence? Blaming myself is not about me, but I do it all the time. If we're playin' let the game be fair.
just 'cause you can't say it out loud. Does no one ask or is there something that can't be shown?
Trees will speak
before you listen. Oh my God
No one knows that
we can barely stand each other
it's not fair.
No, it's not fair
Where is the Justice and Independence? Blaming myself is not about me, but I do it all the time. If we're playin' let the game be fair.
четверг, 05 июня 2014
I press trigger
This strange magic of disappointment,
when you are stuck between things you can't recognise.
When you're about to vomit
but even your heart is so numb so you can't just make a move.
I'm not talking about loneliness.
I'm talking about the time when something ends and you can't take it.
When something has just broken and you haven't understood yet what to do next.
When you're just stuck in the middle
and scared of thinking just because you're afraid of the result - does our thoughts are material?
And I'm fuckin' afraid of thinking of you just 'cause the story can repeat.
Probably, this is what I hate the most -
nothing ever changes.
Everybody stays the same.
when you are stuck between things you can't recognise.
When you're about to vomit
but even your heart is so numb so you can't just make a move.
I'm not talking about loneliness.
I'm talking about the time when something ends and you can't take it.
When something has just broken and you haven't understood yet what to do next.
When you're just stuck in the middle
and scared of thinking just because you're afraid of the result - does our thoughts are material?
And I'm fuckin' afraid of thinking of you just 'cause the story can repeat.
Probably, this is what I hate the most -
nothing ever changes.
Everybody stays the same.
I press trigger
Простите, простите, простите меня!
И я вас прощаю, и я вас прощаю.
Я зла не держу, это вам обещаю.
Но только вы тоже простите меня!
Забудьте, забудьте, забудьте меня!
И я вас забуду, и я вас забуду.
Я вам обещаю: вас помнить не буду.
Но только вы тоже забудьте меня!
Как будто мы жители разных планет.
На вашей планете я не проживаю.
Я вас уважаю, я вас уважаю,
Но я на другой проживаю. Привет!
И я вас прощаю, и я вас прощаю.
Я зла не держу, это вам обещаю.
Но только вы тоже простите меня!
Забудьте, забудьте, забудьте меня!
И я вас забуду, и я вас забуду.
Я вам обещаю: вас помнить не буду.
Но только вы тоже забудьте меня!
Как будто мы жители разных планет.
На вашей планете я не проживаю.
Я вас уважаю, я вас уважаю,
Но я на другой проживаю. Привет!
I press trigger
I can't choose the side, can't choose the shore
You've told me what I slould do,
so shell I act as you wanted me to?
No, I won't.
I will never let you take a grip
over me. Let river break my ship.
I'd rather let moon lead me into the dark
than give you a knife
by which I will die.
среда, 04 июня 2014
I press trigger
О как противоречив этот дурацкий, отвратительный, жалкий мир!
Любовь здесь ценят на вес золота и презирают как недопустимую слабость, иллюзию, как топор, занесенный над головой несчастной жертвы.
Эгоизм здесь приравнивают к преступлению и возносят как единственный способ сосуществования.
Здесь тебя предает даже чашка кофе, потому что за ней больше не выкуришь сигареты.
Любовь здесь ценят на вес золота и презирают как недопустимую слабость, иллюзию, как топор, занесенный над головой несчастной жертвы.
Эгоизм здесь приравнивают к преступлению и возносят как единственный способ сосуществования.
Здесь тебя предает даже чашка кофе, потому что за ней больше не выкуришь сигареты.
замри и умри,
пока не убили тебя
пока не убили тебя
вторник, 03 июня 2014
I press trigger
taste the flesh
loose your soul
loose your soul
No, I can't find you.
No, I don't wanna talk
No I can't decide what if you'll sleep away. But to be honest the most difficult thing is that I don't know what I want from you.
On the one hand, the thought of us being together scares me to death. We can't be together, at least 'cause we're too similar, there's something between us that woun't let us be attached to each other 'till the end of time. There are two thing that can be between us: eternal love or death. There's no other way but to hurt each other.
On the other hand...It seems that we feel the same way. Do I love you? I completely don't. And you don't love me either. But I can't loose you. Will I bear the fact that you've choosen someone else?
I don't need anything.
I don't need your love, your promises.
Just hold me in your arms.
Forever.
Please.
With all my honesty,
Lolita
суббота, 12 апреля 2014
I press trigger
«I need a change
I need a change of skin»
I need a change of skin»
I was full of emotions and disappointment
and tried to write down
exactly what I felt
But somehow
the paper stayed empty
and I could not have
described it any better.
I guess everything is a ______________
пятница, 11 апреля 2014
I press trigger
и мне понятен смысл,
ведь это я смылся
я перед вами как Адам, на котором нет листьев
No Belissimo ! хоть молись ему
хоть отправляй сотнями письма - "Да отъебись ты!" -
его ответ мне
его ответ "Нет"
does the Monster you're hiding inside
really exist?
does the words that you're showing everyone
mean this?
which of the ghosts of our past are you talking to?
don't you dare forget what happended to us. because I do.
ведь это я смылся
я перед вами как Адам, на котором нет листьев
No Belissimo ! хоть молись ему
хоть отправляй сотнями письма - "Да отъебись ты!" -
его ответ мне
его ответ "Нет"
does the Monster you're hiding inside
really exist?
does the words that you're showing everyone
mean this?
which of the ghosts of our past are you talking to?
don't you dare forget what happended to us. because I do.
среда, 09 апреля 2014
I press trigger
And when my back is turned
my bruises shine
But I'll take the bruise, I know you're worth it
When you hit me - hit me hard
my bruises shine
But I'll take the bruise, I know you're worth it
When you hit me - hit me hard
вторник, 11 марта 2014
I press trigger
мой Гумберт, моё безумие, моя невинность и моя порочность
ты привил мне любовь к темному времени суток, где я, едва касаясь пальцами густой синевы ночи, проваливаюсь в горячую молочно-медовую колыбель, грезя о твоих объятиях
мой Гумберт, моя исступленная, немая мольба. мой Мефистофель
feu de mes reins!
que je deviens fou de chaque contact accidentel de ton!
j'ose demander une seule chose: sois à moi dans le rêve, le tentateur.
vorte petite Lolita.
ты привил мне любовь к темному времени суток, где я, едва касаясь пальцами густой синевы ночи, проваливаюсь в горячую молочно-медовую колыбель, грезя о твоих объятиях
мой Гумберт, моя исступленная, немая мольба. мой Мефистофель
feu de mes reins!
que je deviens fou de chaque contact accidentel de ton!
j'ose demander une seule chose: sois à moi dans le rêve, le tentateur.
vorte petite Lolita.
пятница, 24 мая 2013
I press trigger
Hello, my sweetest friend.
I apologize for my english, but I can't act another way.
It's raining cats and dogs tonight. The rain falls from heaven as the tears fall from my eyes.
You are the only person who can I share my fate with. And you are the only one whom I can trust my soul. Don't be mad at me now, I'm too upset with everything and I need someone who can listen me. Carely and with desire to secure me, 'cause all the small things make me feel helpless tonight.
Tomorrow is the Graduatiom Day. For me it's not just the last day of school - it doesn't hurt me at all. There are another reason of my boundless sadness. I feel like I'm loosing the main thing. The thing I value the most. I've never expected it could turn out that way. I thought love had no borders and would lasts forever notwithstanding the circumstances. But it seems like it doesn't. I don't really know now if it's true. Like, wait and see.
All the year I haven't thought about love from this point of view. I had no doubt that we would be together somehow. Somewhere. But now I feel like it will end with The Last Call. I don't mean we'll decide that there's no sence in being together anymore. I just want to say... I don't know how to say. I mean that we will fall apart the next day with no explanations. Like we both knew it should be done, like it something obvious and unspekable.
This is what I'm terrified about. This is the scariest thought I've ever had. Because I don't want to loose thing I've got. And it hurts like it was the first time.
Anyway, we will never knew how life will be until it happens. So let's keep silence and live as we can.
Many thanks for you listening all this shit. It means much for me. Either you do. I thank God I have you.
Truly honest,
Me
I apologize for my english, but I can't act another way.
It's raining cats and dogs tonight. The rain falls from heaven as the tears fall from my eyes.
You are the only person who can I share my fate with. And you are the only one whom I can trust my soul. Don't be mad at me now, I'm too upset with everything and I need someone who can listen me. Carely and with desire to secure me, 'cause all the small things make me feel helpless tonight.
Tomorrow is the Graduatiom Day. For me it's not just the last day of school - it doesn't hurt me at all. There are another reason of my boundless sadness. I feel like I'm loosing the main thing. The thing I value the most. I've never expected it could turn out that way. I thought love had no borders and would lasts forever notwithstanding the circumstances. But it seems like it doesn't. I don't really know now if it's true. Like, wait and see.
All the year I haven't thought about love from this point of view. I had no doubt that we would be together somehow. Somewhere. But now I feel like it will end with The Last Call. I don't mean we'll decide that there's no sence in being together anymore. I just want to say... I don't know how to say. I mean that we will fall apart the next day with no explanations. Like we both knew it should be done, like it something obvious and unspekable.
This is what I'm terrified about. This is the scariest thought I've ever had. Because I don't want to loose thing I've got. And it hurts like it was the first time.
Anyway, we will never knew how life will be until it happens. So let's keep silence and live as we can.
Many thanks for you listening all this shit. It means much for me. Either you do. I thank God I have you.
Truly honest,
Me